Friday, June 12, 2009

Exactly how I feel

This is a statue of Winston Churchill.
It stands in Nathan Phillips Square.

As the title of this blog says,
this is exactly how I feel.
All broody and crapped on.

I can't seem to shake it.
I've been feeling like this for a few weeks now.
Although I can't really pinpoint what the cause is,
I know it's likely the simple fact that it's June.

June, for some reason, has become a stressful month for me.
Mainly because my birthday is coming up.
Which is always a reflective time for me.
Not always a positive reflection, mind you.
Instead, it's usually a reminder of what I haven't accomplished.

I know I shouldn't dwell on the negatives.
After all, I'm the one always telling others to be positive.
But it's difficult to keep your baton twirling
when others are raining on your parade.

Unfortunately, all the naysayers are currently people close to me.
And it would be hurtful,
and spiteful,
to tell them to sod off.

As much as I want to,
I don't.
Oh, I shout it all the time in my head.
But my mouth stays closed.
Lips pursed.
Teeth grinding.

Maybe if I said it politely.
With a smile.
It wouldn't seem so offensive.

Yeah, you're right.
Probably not.

Bugger it!


Mojito said...

Here's the thing.
If they are offering up the negative energy, and hurting you, you have every right to tell them to, as you put it, "sod off".
For that matter, you could spit on their shoes, too.
It is your life, and your business. Not theirs.
If you need an umbrella to stop all that raining on your parade, I'm REALLY good at telling people to mind themselves! ;)

Busy Bee Suz said...

You can't be surrounded by negativity. really. You MUST say something. You will feel better in the long run...
good luck.

Evil Twin's Wife said...

I think if people are making you sad, you have every right to protect yourself by saying something. Hope you get to feeling better soon!

Penny said...

Sorry you are feeling blah :(
Treat yourself to something fab this weekend and don't listen the negatives. You are wonderful!

Dani said...'s better to tell them. If they're really people who care and are close to you they should understand when you tell them to back off. Good luck and feel better!

Dani said...

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Crazy Mo said...

Thanks, everyone. That really lifted my spirits. I'll be flipping a metaphoric bird in a few weeks. I think it will get the message across. I'll let you know how it goes. In the meantime, I will ride on all your positive well wishes. Thanks again!

Optimistic Pessimist said...

That's a tough one...i think you could maybe try to say something a nicely as possible...or maybe hint.

I get sad around my b-day too. Like you said it's a time of reflection.

lady fairchilde said...

Churchill, sod, bugger? Are you turning British on me?

Don't worry, bananas, chocolate chips and peanut butter will make it all better in a few minutes ;)

C said...

i hope by now things are feeling better for you. everyone has a bad month or season, mine is the spring. did anything traumatic happen to you at this time of year?